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欢迎大家来到我的部落格... 没有一流的文笔,没有华丽的设计...只是记录些心情,事迹...
看过觉得还过得去不妨留下痕迹 :p

Modified -

Saturday, February 28, 2009

LOL..


Edited something on my blog.



i wonder anyone can spot the difference ?

Some parts become slimmer
Some parts become wider ? lol


Thx to Doi Doi www.doiwl.com this time..


although my blog nearly gone under his " mighty " hand. hahaha.



Well... If still found any "bug" in my blog... Feel free to tell me ya ~







项链没了~

Friday, February 27, 2009





我一向来都那么健忘不小心..
犹记上次电脑被人 reformat 时...
忘了为 My Pictures 留下副本..
以至所有充满回忆的照片荡然无存..


项链遗失后
现在剩下的只是手机里零星的照片
一些日用品..
还有一个打从第一天拥有主人开始就失去了它的另一半的戒指..



忘了是几时..
常伴我项上的那条项链已经不复见..



我舍不得将之丢弃或收藏
因为我是个念旧的人..



这条链是一个太阳形状的荧光链
里面镶着一个幸运草..
我总习惯性的在面临大场面大件事或者压力大时轻轻用手抚摸它



或许上天觉得这个习惯伤身吧..
趁我忙碌时没留意时把链弄断... 让它离我而去...



就让你的主人我选一首歌当作回馈你对我的衷心.....
如果你还听得到的话..
闭上你的双眼..
细细体会王若琳唱这首歌的情感吧..




再见..
所谓的 " 日月永恒 "










青涩~

group photo in front of library



从 doi doi 的 blog 偷来的..
www.doiwl.com
还有更多~



想了一想
三年多了...



我们到底学了多少 ? 变了多少 ?
无论如何... 友谊永固 !

Friends Forever ~!




-SAAS interaction CAMP-

Thursday, February 26, 2009



This is a busy semester for me. I had joined an event under Chinese Language Society. It is Social Awareness Activity Series 2008-2009 or we call it short as SAAS. What is this event all about? In short the reason of organizing this event is to help students in gaining a better understanding of these social problems and currents issues. Social Awareness Activity Series (SAAS) consists of a series of events starting from recycling week, sharing, and charity fundraising to camp. Is it meaningful?



There are a few main objectives that we hope to achieve throughout this event. The main objectives are to promote a better understanding of social problems and to empathize on the topic of hunger and poverty among Multimedia University students. Besides, we also try to raise fund to help the people in need, promote good moral values through the Chinese cultures and instill leadership qualities among the undergraduates. The total committee members of this event are around 90 people.



Last weekend, we had our interaction camp at Hutan Rekreasi which located just beside the 24 hours MacDonald’s (Ayer Keroh). What is the main aim of this camp? The purpose of organizing this camp is to let the organizing committee and working committee know each other deeper so that there will be easier to get the jobs done in future. This is a fun and exciting camp if you are a camper. However, this will be a very tiring task for you if you are the organizer. Well, I was one of the organizer of this camp.



Since the start of 2nd semester in early February, we, the camp organizer team had been busy meeting and discussing the details of the interaction camp. We hope to leave a memorable memory to those who join the camp. Three weeks we had prepared and always had meetings till late night. If you guys are frequent visitor to MMU nearby Mamak stalls or those 24 hours MacDonald’s at late night, I am pretty sure you guys can bump into me. No doubt it was busy but we all enjoyed it well. Not many tears but lots of laughter generated from our various meetings and outings.



We all have the same aim and target that is to make this camp a successful one. Although we faced many hindrances and problems but together we solved one by one. Another one and half year I will be graduated from MMU and this will surely be one of the sweet memory that I have in university life. I won’t forget the time we trying to set up fire and testing game in Hutan Rekreasi, the time we discussing those treasure hunt games midnight in the dark jungle, the time we dancing at CLC concourse and of course the experience of becoming a plumber cleaning the mess in the toilet !



Finally , the camp is over. It was tiring as I only slept less than 2 hours in 2 days. I even dozed off when conducting some station games in camp. However, I was relieved. Everything went on smoothly and I saw some camper really enjoy the camp. That makes me feel all our hardwork are worthwhile.



Hutan Rekreasi , a place full of sweet memories for me. I will never forget the efforts and hardwork we put in to make the camp a successful one. I will never forget this is the place that drew our hearts nearer to each other. I will never forget two years ago we had a very happy and successful camp here too and knew a lot of good friends. Last but not least,of course i will never forget this is the fateful place that we met… where I hold her hands for the very first time… strolling together down the jungle path in that silent, peaceful, beautiful memorable night……




This is the blog entry i goin to post in my Fet Blog(stupid Assignment) ..

But the stupid FET blog down for 2 days already so i post it here first.

Please don't laugh for my noob England >.<







感...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009





看了屋友发了篇 KingS 的部落..
有感而发..



这首歌触动了前一晚离开狂欢之地隔一天起床后的心情..
一切的疯狂
一切的放纵
一切的逢场作戏



随着梦醒了
酒精散了
一切都随风而逝..
随波逐流..




我是有这种感觉..


你可曾有过 ?









容易受伤的男人 ?





上面是社醒交流营的团康歌曲
蕭敬騰 - 海芋戀

不知为什么... 有种越听越喜欢越听越放松的感觉...
心情好啊 !~
莫非解铃还需系铃地 ?



才从营里出来..
拖着两天内真正睡不到两个小时的疲惫身躯
看到房间里那对当时的我充满诱惑力的床褥..
就在我正想往他怀里靠时..


一个兴奋的声音从我身后传来..

" 庭毅 , 要不要去打羽球 ? "



哇....
有没有心肝喔你们.. 明知我是经不起诱惑的嘛.... 哈哈哈 ~



结果当然是打球疲软.. 间中还扭了下我的脖子...
我是个标准的右撇子..
可是打完球后左手竟然有种脱臼了的感觉..
到现在还在痛 ~!



呵呵..



看完后不要再在 msn / ym 骂我不会照顾自己...

认识我也算久了...


就当成习惯了吧...




至少我证明了一件事..
身体机能在最疲惫的时候的确最容易受伤..






Tagged ~

Tuesday, February 24, 2009



Rules:It's harder than it looks!



Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real.
Nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.
You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.




1.What is your name : Tee Ting Yi
2. A four Letter Word : Tear ( a Drop of salty liquid LOL )
3. A boy's Name : Tank
4. A girl's Name : Tiffany
5. An occupation : Technician (well that's what i will be after i Graduate b4 i got my Engineer Test Pass)
6. A color : This is a nice question ( haha my english not that good >.< ) 7. Something you'll wear : T-shirt ( easy LOL)
9. A food : Tiramisu ( a wonderful Italian dessert )
10. Something found in the bathroom : Tissue Paper
11. A place : The place i had sweet memories
12. A reason for being late : Too many reasons
13. Something you'd shout : Ta ma de ~ ( i nv shout be4 is i always heard ppl shout... )
14. A movie title : The lord of the Rings ( my all time favorite movie )
15. A drink : Teh tarik ( Lim teh 1st choice )
16. A musical group : The Carpenters ( Nv heard be4 ? They sang yesterday once more and top of the world. )
17. An animal : Turtle ( best described my Brain processing Speed when i'm in Relaxing mode)
18. A street name : Tan Cheng Lock Road ? ( simply guess dunno got such road exist in MY or not =.=)
19. A type of car : Toyota AE86 !
20. The title of a song : The way you look tonight - Frank sinatra ( a golden romantic oldies )




lol.. Finished it le finally after back from travelling~



So.. who wanna try this ? =.=||





I tag ~

1) CLC
2) Doi
3) Ratias
4) Miki
5) yu mei
6) wei juan
7) soon lee
8) Jian wei
9) Daniel
10) lavy
11) wei wei
12) pei inn
13)
晴☆天使
14) xue wen
15) hui wei ( the new blogger :p )
16) tsue wen
17) Ah poh
18) hiratsu




Just simply list some blogger from my list >>>>
Interested go try and answer ba ^^ :P








能不能给我 emo 的时间?

Saturday, February 21, 2009



就在准准两个月前...
我失去了我以为能与我长厢厮守的女人...


两个月后
难道我又要失去一个我以为能与我奋斗到最后一刻的伙伴 ?



这是什么 ?



上天的玩笑 ?





我肩上已顶着个离去的人的责任..
再顶多一个..
都不知顶不顶得顺..




" If you believe you can, you CAN ! "
脑海深处传来这个熟希的声音..... 只可惜不是我自己的声音...




心灵没了寄托..
仿佛是空洞的躯壳在漂浮..



只想找回属于我的心..
看看为何这么渺小的心..




能衍生出这么多的情感...
这么多的忧愁..







社醒 交流营 !

Friday, February 20, 2009



唉..
从开学忙碌到现在
就是为了做好这个第一次举办也有可能是最后一次举办的
社会醒觉活动系列 2008-2009

交流营..



这个交流营不像往常般由华文学会理事筹办..
是由筹委会里几个筹委自己筹办..
而我很不幸的
是其中一个...


这应该是我在大学的最后一个活动了吧...
本以为还有一个最后一次做营员的机会 >.<
无奈..
事与愿违



筹办虽然辛苦..
遇上不少问题...
可是也不乏许多好笑的经历..



希望..
这个周末天空继续放晴...
社醒交流营能顺利的成功..







最近...

Thursday, February 19, 2009




人总要经过些挫折...
才会更完美... 更完善..


我是否变了.. 我不知道...
不过我最近经常做出以前的我绝对不会做出的事情..
我怕..
不经意伤害了身旁的人..

只不过有一点可以很肯定...
我比从前更害怕失去.. 我更珍惜我所拥有的...



最近..
我爱上了走路..
从家里走到学校 , 听着音乐..
细细感受那细风..
慢慢感觉那喧闹的马路 , 矮小的灌木...


回忆着刚进大学的曾经..
那时还纯真嬉闹的我们...


不过这也需要敏捷的身手..
因为当你沉醉在回忆中时....
死神的手极有可能静静的, 默默地向你伸张..


因为 ,
当你回过神来..
你可能面对一辆向你飞驰而来的轿车...
还是无牌驾驶的摩托骑士 , 或是老太婆骑着的脚车..



还好以前打球的敏捷始终还潜伏体内..
深吸一口气缩腹 , 再反射性动作往后一跳...
轿车似乎贴胸呼啸而过 ,
摩托车似乎差肩而过..
而骑脚车的老太婆露出那早已没了牙的嘴巴..
向还在冒冷汗的我微笑..
奇妙温暖的微笑...
毫不费力的就能把冷汗蒸发...



又遇见了你..
你说一个人的我散发出一种悲伤的气质..
尤其不出声的时候..
有一种让人也会伤感的渗透力..
好像在我四周自动筑了隐形的墙让人无法接近....不敢打扰



有这么夸张吗 ?




至少我不觉得..
我只是藉着陈旧的音乐 ...
细细的品尝回忆..




无论甜也好 , 悲也罢...
这是我个人的享受...







光阴似箭...



不知不觉.. 时间过得很快..
就这么混混沌沌的度过了两个月...


第一个月 ,
把自己沉浸在泪水里
第二个月 ,
把自己淹没在忙碌中... 没再为她掉过一滴泪..


以为一切都如例行公事般会随着时间而散淡..
又是以为.. !


空荡的心房其实一直都在默默地储存着流不出的泪水..
伺机等待把主人击垮的最佳良机..
让他如决堤般崩溃..


我尽量不让你得逞..
不过一向来关系和我很好的大脑告诉了我..
你们似乎在预谋着什么..



行行好 , 好不好 ?
可不可以别让我在那么寂静美丽的森林里想起我们的回忆....
和第一次牵你的手的回忆..



我不想别人看到苦肿双眼的傻瓜..







请别再在我的伤口上撒盐...




举得起 , 放得下 , 那叫举重 ....
举得起 , 放不下 , 那就叫做负担....


做人..
总应该学习习惯於失去 , 并善于从失去中有所得..



曾经曾经
我以为自己是个拿得起 , 放得下潇洒洒脱的人..
我以为自己是开得起玩笑的人...
哈哈..
又是以为 !



" 快乐是建筑在别人的痛苦上的 "
是否当别人的快乐筑得越稳越高越大越深...
痛苦上的感觉也会随之而增加 ?



你做事总是不会顾及到别人的感受..
算了..
我习惯了那种锥心的痛..
就让我成为大家嘲笑的对象吧..
让大家对着那张照片嘲笑傻子的痴 , 赞颂你的绝..



" 你在哪里 ? "
" 在你心里 "



我好想念那双动人的双眼说出这句话的眼神..




悲哀..
我比小狗还可怜..







Zodiac ..

Tuesday, February 17, 2009




VIRGO (The One that Waits)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. CUTE.



SCORPIO (The Addict)

EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring...


LIBRA (The Lame One)

Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you wanna mess with... You might end up crying ...



ARIES (The Liar)

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud..



AQUARIUS (Does It In The Water)

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.



GEMINI (Irresistible)

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in the you know where ... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.



LEO (The Lion)

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.



CANCER (The Cutie)

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.


PISCES (The Partner for Life)

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but In a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.


CAPRICO RN (The Passionate Lover)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy... Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports.. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.


TAURUS (The Tramp)

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!



SAGITTARIUS (The Promiscuous One)

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with, you might end up crying.





Got it from my Friend's email.
I'm Scorpio.

=.=|| GG ... talkative sia..






Charice... Awesome Vocal ~







Awesome Vocal Performance by Charice..

She is so young and has such a powerful voice.
I'm Glad.


Whitney Houston , Mariah Carey , Celine Dion
Looks like you all have successor ad ~


I enjoy her performance very very much. ~







Let's Rocks !

Monday, February 16, 2009



[ I will Survive - Abba ]



At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you
By my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
And I learned how to get along


And so you're back
From other space
I just walked in to find you
Here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me


Well now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?


Oh no not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As Long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
Yeah, yeah


It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry,
But now I hold my head up high


And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you
And so you felt like just dropping in
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone whose lovin' me


Well now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around
Now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?


Oh not I,
I will survive
Yeah
As long as I know how to love,
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive,
I will survive
Yeah, yeah
Oh no






14 . 2 . 2009



我不否认
在这个日子里...
有些人的 msn/ym 照片或 status 显得格外刺眼..
呵呵...
终于硬下心肠删除了联络.. 这是好的开始 lol~
虽然..

按下滑鼠的那一刹那还是很犹豫..
心..
还是很疼...



房间的一角..
一支寂寞的牙刷在默默的等待它的女主人..
另一角..
我俩的照片...
似乎在嘲笑男主人的无能.. 男主人的软弱...
鄙视男主人只会苦笑..
却提不起勇气把它们一把火烧掉 !


这房间始终还是残留着女主人的味道..
唉..


总有一天这一切都会被男主人狠心的毁灭..
不过... 那还不是今天 ...








疲惫的我本来打算安分呆在家里度过这对许多人来说浪漫的节日..
一通电话就摧毁了我的计划..


* Arena *


至于怎么过.. 和谁过...


我只能说多过三辆车吧..
很 high 很开心..
不然也不会搞到失声..


抱歉不能写的太仔细.. 毕竟我们还是有 Blogging Rules & Regulations ^^ LOL~




P/s : Although at last the atmosphere is high.. but Arena Still Fail as a night club in my eyes.
Design , Space , Area , lighting.... Simply Sux..


Just like a noisy Cafe nia..
Noob.


i give it a 5/10.








14. 2. 2008

Saturday, February 14, 2009



最近忙完了整天回家
身躯很疲惫
脑子的细胞却不停歇...
似乎怕我会忘了伤感 ....


总是摸摸拖拖到了日出才能入眠..
到了这时脑细胞更是活跃..
在我与周公约会时不时穿插一些画面让我分不清到底是梦还是现实 ?


所以最近睡觉还是锁门的好..
不然说了什么梦话我也不知....



你又出现了..
一身白色的上衣
还是那么可爱 ... 那么动人...
手里捧着我们俩情人节前夕一起动手做的爱心巧克力饼干...
甜蜜的画面不过看在我的眼力心中是那么的刺痛..

Aunty 也出现了..
" 哇 ... 在做饼干啊 ? 第一次做的可不可以吃的喔 ? 等下留给我一点...
不要有了男朋友就不要老妈仔 liao arh .. "

情人节前夕的甜蜜 , 与烤焦了的巧克力饼干的味道正是最强烈的对比..


说好了情人节我不需要你辛苦..


不过当我睡醒来的那一刹那...
一阵香喷喷的早餐已在我眼前..
都是我喜欢吃的东西..


瞬时明白幸福其实很简单..



烈日照上了我的床..

梦醒了..
我做了好几天一样的梦...
这到底是甜蜜的梦..


还是噩梦 ?





享 ..




" 当你穿上了爱情的婚纱,我也披上了和尚的袈裟 "


有些时候,正是为了爱才悄悄躲开...
躲开的是身影 , 躲不开的却是那份默默的情怀....



有时,爱也是种伤害....
残忍的人 , 选择伤害别人 , 善良的人 , 选择伤害自己 ..



淋过雨的空气
疲倦了的伤心
我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的融化......








Lame Valentine's Song =.=||

Friday, February 13, 2009




Lame Stuff For my Lonely Valentine.

Got this thru Email haha ~


CheerS for all Bachelors out there ^^ ~ :P






梦境..





那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程


爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人


容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人


你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍


我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人


三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成


你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人


宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人


[方炯镔 -- 坏人 ]



日有所思 , 夜有所梦 ?



曾经曾经...
7 包 strepsils 和 一碗温馨的萝卜粥
这么容易就感动了我..
这么容易就俘虏了我的心..


你的声音还环绕在我的耳际..
" 傻瓜 , 我是上天派来照顾一个永远不愿意承认自己身体弱的倔强男人 "
" 我的任务是让你白白胖胖不再让病魔缠着你 "
虚弱的男人臣服了
安稳的睡着在温柔女人的脚边..



如今你走了..
真的要连本带利般带走你曾给的吗 ?
体重跌了八公斤还在继续锐减..
真的... 那么狠 ?



周公.. 你可不可以别偷懒...
别再把回忆往我的梦里塞..


我怕我自己会无法克制..
从此以后不再醒过来..











搞笑..

Thursday, February 12, 2009



那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹

好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套

我忘了没人陪我通霄
要多少替代的丑角 孤独的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好


我在搞笑 借著热闹 掩盖著心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说著 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道

你好不好


我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床位
少了一双脚
所以它常常看著门口睡不著


我在搞笑 借著热闹 掩盖著心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说著 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得 我可以死掉
我受不了


我在搞笑 却在最后 眼泪拼命掉
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀


还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱离别歌 却避不开 催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到

你好不好


[罗志祥 - 搞笑 ]




本来想写个标题为 "忧郁的小丑" 的文章
不过这首歌省下了我这一番功夫
彻底的形容现在的我..


自己失去了笑容
只好期望能以别人的笑容来填补..
但当博得别人的笑容时 ,
心里却产生莫名的空虚... 莫名的妒嫉.... 莫名的想念..


空虚因为那曾经装着个炽热的心的心房如今已如此空洞..
嫉妒别人能笑得那么开怀 , 无虑..
想念那曾经是我生命推动力的笑容...



对不起 请原谅我的自私
我不希望身旁的人陪着我一起悲伤..
我宁愿大家以欢乐的心情 , 气氛...
围绕在一个表面完全没有迹象的自我封闭的极度悲伤空间..

所以..
别再问我最近过得好不好..
好不好 ?

总有一天主角累了, 倦了 , 再也扛不下这个包袱了..
一切或许如洪流般倾泻而出 ...



唉..
别人笑我太疯癫 , 我笑他人看不穿 ~






忙忙忙 ~

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


haiz...
Recently really very busy...
Since the day i back to Melaka from my CNY holiday..


Seriously i never get a good rest >.<


Everyday Full with Meetings , Outings..
No time to write out what i wanna write lol~
I guess Valentine's Day is my only free day in this 3 weeks ba >.< haha.




这首歌两年前曾经是我部落格的背景音乐
现在又回来了 ~


张智成 [ 很想你 ]


你 在那里
这些年来如意不如意
还快乐 还单纯 还美丽
时光如何对你


我 在这里
人海中一座岛屿
很平静 风平浪静
只除了深夜里
回忆会疯狂来袭


我很想你
你知道吗
如果可以 就让我再见你
美好微笑 清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我一个而已


我很想你
听见了吗 woo...
这是唯一 我无解的困境
那些过去 不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你


我 在哪里
你会不会偶尔好奇
有没有 曾经怀疑
我说我会忘记
只是种好意


不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息 不是你
都不是你 我只想爱你





又生病了..
伤心的人是不是特别容易病倒 ?

身体这么快就不顶了 ?


笨蛋!
这次不撑下去你还是男人吗 ?






[百万富翁的初恋]

Tuesday, February 10, 2009



我讨厌韩国电影..
总是让我痛哭流涕..
伤心欲绝


快结疤了的伤口
用指甲挑开疤
血流了出来


抓起把盐巴
轻轻的 , 慢慢的往伤口撒..


撒完了
泪也干了..
可以睡觉了...








my Dear ... my pledge to you..

Sunday, February 8, 2009


Recently finding consolation in this new sexy American girl.


i love music much.

Especially sooth love songs.
Mostly oldies or some Korean Sad drama theme songs.



Dear Ipod Shuffer,

you hold the key to change my emotions.
I am not a greedy person.



I just hope for a moment of warmth in my heart.








思 . 忆



裤带里传来一阵震动
把睡梦中的我震醒..
睁开眼的那一刹那
思绪涌了上来
意图延续被打断的美梦..


读了远方而来的讯息
脑海已被思绪吞噬
无法入眠
只能打开着呆滞的双眼 , 望向巴士窗外高山浓雾的景色


转过目光
看着巴士内已熟睡的乘客
看着情侣互挽着手相拥入眠
鼻腔一阵心酸..
眼泪似乎迫不及待的想要逃出眼眶的限制



就在不久以前
你 . 我都踏上了同一片土地
拥有让其他人羡慕不已的甜蜜..
无奈
世事变迁
万象更新..


我左手塔上了冰冷的右手
期望能获得需要的温暖
但我所得到的却是双倍的寒冷 , 双倍的孤独 , 双倍的心酸

难道失去了爱情的温暖是无法从友情的温暖中寻回 ?



温暖还是有的..
至少被眼泪流过的脸颊
还是暖暖的..



手上的戒指还是那么的明亮...
殊不知另外一枚戒指的遭遇如何 ?


而它的主人又如何 ?










冤孽..

Saturday, February 7, 2009



其实Blogging 是我抒发情绪的其中一个管道..
自从意外事件发生后
每多写一篇 blog 只是意味着自己又伤心多一次..

看看自己最近 update blog 的频率..
似乎无论每一天过得多充实都好,
还是无法不想她..


叹~
冤孽啊冤孽..



刚从云顶回来
履行了之前一篇 entry 承诺做的事..
对不起
我也总该为自己着想着想不是吗 ?







Who knows ?

Friday, February 6, 2009


CIS...

Really didn't approve my comment Sobs..
Liddat ppl who go see that blog will probably jump to conclusion that i m bad guy sia.

Sobs T.T

Nvmind i used to it already.
I am bad guy ma.
It's people style. What to do ?

hahahaha.




i dont wish to start a debate.
But if u want to i wont mind just to clear my name.



i will never say your assumptions or mine will be correct.
" Dont judge a book from it's cover "
Who knows the one closest to you actually is the one you should be aware of ?

Who knows ?


Once upon a time, a girl just said to a boy i love you.
But the next day the girl say sry ya i dont love you at all. All the years i just love another guy.

It was lies or truth ?

Who knows ?


The boy and other frens all say nth but just bless them SILENTLY.
None of them say anything.
But the gal think that everyone is cursing her new relationship.
She thought everyone think what she do is wrong.

Right or Wrong ?

Who knows ?


No ppl said that her friends / bf were rubbish or sth.
If got ppl say such things i think the one who said that is truly rubbish.
" Never Look Down on Anyone on this Earth "
But someone label her own fren as " bad ppl "
Issit you urself felt humiliate when you are with them ?

Who knows ?



LOL.. "do it in real life" sia...
Rmb last time we play cabal we scold those ppl who wanted to " do it in real life " as what ?
nth rude also rite ? we just called them the same kind of creature as " micky " hahaha.

Eh, dont think that kind of creatures kenot do anything wor, they also can success one.
Subutex , Foxyance and SetanCruz also can solo PF boss already LOL.


They brave they strong they willing to take some risk.
They maybe get big wealth in future too.
But maybe just because of lacking some education or knowledge Probably will lead to some social problem.
Like broken family cases la , torturing/raping child cases la, torturing maid cases la..

WHO KNOWS ?



feel offended? The feeling is yours, i can’t stop you from being offended. I can’t care about the feeling of every single soul in this living Earth. I’m not a perfect human. I apologize if that makes you feel better. [copy bulat bulat from somewhere LOL plagiarism ! ]


sry this my blog i think i have my freedom to write some rubbish here hor?


o ya... i did not write this entry purposely , i didn't mention who is the gal or what blog address.. I'm just leaving it to your imagination on who is this people ..
[ Copy from somewhere again, plagiarism ! ]




I dont like people talking my bad behind of me or writing what stupid blog hinting something.
If u do think i am the one who did that ..

i welcome you to confront with me.
Or u want call the police haha i will surely entertain you.




I remember someone blocked my MSN and YM for such a period but i wonder why recently unblock me already.
Since after someone unblock me then somethings happened..
Then i mou tin tin being frame for nth..
Why dont you just block me once and for all ?


Since i also dont want my msn/ym contact have someone who treated me as enemy.
I bet no much people will like to have one in their messenger list too.

Or you cant bear it ? then i will do it after this weekend i back from Genting Highlands.




Uncle Lim ,
Will you give me a big big Ang Pau?


WHO KNOWS ?
LOL~











Ache...

Thursday, February 5, 2009



After Gambling till near dawn..
Back home Sleep and when i woke up.
Something really pissed me off !


This is my reply on your blog but i wonder will you approve it?




hi my dear old fren....

why i feel offended when i am reading ur blog ?
After we broke up why i feel all the post in this blog is so mean to me?

yayaya all ppl know how deep u love your current bf u want to emphasize how many times ? The more u emphasize only show how "Much" confident you have in this relationship.


Well, after near 2 years been tgt if u think the ting yi u know will do such kind of silly things then i have nth to say. Let it be.... afterall it's your own blog u want say what also can no need care other ppl feelings ma... That's your style isn't ?

Think twice, maybe deep inside your heart so despo to hate me? so whatever bad things all push to me? Now i get to know this cruel world more.. this is actually what i get after i do nth but blessing you can live happily or get the happiness that i cant give ? WA.. so ironic...


@stalker : i bet you are not my fren. Probably the fren of other side? So no confident in ur frens relationship? Or scared of my spanar skill , LOL ? Need to do this to frame me ? Well if frame me all can get happiness den let it be.. i've used to it.
If u want to let ppl blame on me u shud have use Melaka IP ma.. hahaha

Well i guess this is the difference between Educated ppl and Non-educated ppl ?






Seriously, i'm disappointed.






First Of May [1969] Bee Gees

Wednesday, February 4, 2009



--- First Of May [1969] Bee Gees ---
When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
we used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
someone else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess who'll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And as I recall the moment of them all,
the day I kissed your cheek and you were gone.

Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess who'll cry come first of May.

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
do do do do do do do do do ...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
someone else moved in from far away.




My parents are Bee Gees Fans...
Almost all songs from Bee Gees they till now still can remember the lyrics...
This piece is one of their favorite.
So when i was young,
i always fall asleep in this beautiful melody.


Now i've grown up.
Understand the lyrics even more.
thus,
this will be my all time favorite song.


you..
please dont be so soft-hearted
please be more cruel to me
i know u can do better..


before
i be cruel.
Don't forget...
i'm Scorpio.


" when i was small , and christmas trees were tall.. "
"do do do.... do do do do.. do do... "






你听过筷子的故事吗?

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

(06 年 kok wu 生日 & 07 年 Doi Doi 生日的 housemate 照 )




上面是翻翻旧 photo folder 找到的 Housemate 照..
感叹
时间过得真是很快..
有人说只有老人才会整天缅怀过去..
难道我真的老了 ?



这是个资讯科技爆炸的年代
大家的父母都会上网
甚至会通过 blog 来了解孩子们的生活..


所以我们家通过了一个议案
你听过筷子的故事吗 ?
一根筷子只需轻轻一折就断了
但是如果你拿起十根二十根那么想折断只怕没那么容易了...


看不明白?
其实很简单..
议案的大概就是以后写 blog 是对事不对人..
怎么说是对事不对人呢 ?


打个比方..
Blog 标题 " 我和 Doi Doi 和 仑襁他们的云顶赌场成人游 "
或是
" 我和仑襁 , 霖嵩他们的疯狂海边 Clubbing 传 ! "
Wa !!!..
这种标题和内容的 Blog 就是被 BAN BAN BAN 的啦 !



这个时候就是考验大家默契和团结的时候了咯
如果要写也不能指名道姓的写..
发挥你的创意婉转点写 ~
毕竟 "救人一命胜造七级浮屠" 嘛..



希望各位 Blogger 能大举支持我们的议案 ~
不胜感激..








你回来了? >.<



看着我的双手
再站在镜子前
我再也看不到以前的自己..


不得不承认 , 我真的瘦了
现在的胃口或许只有以前的一半..
我是个喜欢把笑容常伴脸上的人
不过最近似乎苦笑爱上了我
原来 , 苦笑也还蛮吃力的...


我恨..
我的头脑为什么不能休息让我能好好静一静
不过就开个会议嘛.. 总有人出席有人缺席
何必介意何必挂怀 ?
疼..
鼻腔内又闻到了血腥味...


站在路旁
新年风还是如往常般刺骨寒冷..
虽然我身上穿着朋友们的温暖
但是手心里的寒冷还是无法欺骗自己内心的寂寞..


脑袋啊脑袋..
可不可以合作点...
不要让我每眼看出去还看得到那人的影子..
任何地方都还看得到曾经....
你是不是想逼疯你的主人?



没救了..
难道真的只能活在回忆里 ?





- Background Music : First of May (Bee Gees ,1969) -





海上的故事...

Monday, February 2, 2009



很想写下我新年期间
大学放假过的开心事迹...
但每次心情都被破坏....
写不出来..



很久很久以前
有两个人共乘着一条小船
经历了多少风风雨雨
但还不是都这样挨了过来..



不过在海上久了
或许对陆地的憧憬更深
以致这艘时而牢固时而脆弱的小船
无法顺利通过那一波无情的浪



" 啪 "
一声巨响
终结了两人安宁而平静的海上生活
船... 断了...
被无情的大浪打得支离破碎..



男孩精通泳术 , 女孩是个旱鸭子
男孩竭尽所能要挽救女孩..
但女孩并没有接受男孩的救援..



反而独自一人依靠在一个陈旧腐烂的浮木上..
期望它能带她到她憧憬的海岸..
踏上那沙沙的陆地
体验那非一般的风俗民情..



如果你是男孩 , 你会如何 ?



男孩心碎了..
心爱的女孩不再相伴于身旁


男孩受伤了...
精通泳术竟然还比不过一个烂木头..


男孩绝望了....
默默地往与女孩相反的方向游去....
希望永远再也不要再见到女孩..



因为这对男孩来说..
是一辈子的伤痛..

就算未来痊愈了...
也留下了个永远不可磨灭的伤痕 ...




也难怪海水永远不会变淡

因为有个傻子的眼泪不停的留进大海..