love ?

A mask i have to put on in front of family and friends,
I do not know why i put up a farcade,
I just do not want people to worry for me.
A cheerful and outgoing face i put up,
And yet it's a dark and gloomy place in my heart.
I know i do not wanna cheat my friends.
But i just do not know how to put it to them;
I have to put up a show,
A show for all to see,
Only in here can i be,
True to myself.
Frankly speaking, Im leading life,
Living life, in all the wrong ways.



Like i've said,
Don't love me like the moon,
Love me like a river,
For the river is everlasting,
Unlike the uncertainties in the moon's forever change.
And i assure you that my love is as everlasting as the river.



Strolling down the dark path,
All alone, so cold, so pain.
It's raining here in my heart.
I've never felt so hurt.
I've never felt so useless.
It's my feelings, and it's my heart
But yet, why is it so uncontrollable?
More then a thousand words i have to say.
Never once do i feel pain,
And never once have i loved in vain.



Thinking of you, brings much pain,
Missing you is like a disease eating me up slowly in vain.
But i cant help thinking and miss you.
Many times i cried surrender,
Many times i tried to give up,
I guess i'd be alone to romance myself,
I guess i'd be alone for the rest of my life.
Loving you is like fighting a war.
It's tiring, It's killing me.
But i'd like to let you know that my love for you will always remain the same.



Love's a feeling i can't explain,
It brings joy,
And it brings pain.
It stays a short while,
As beautiful as a sunrise,
As ugly as a war.
It brings chaos into yr heart
And giving u cuts.
When u love someone like i do,
I guess u'll know it too.



-snowangel-